Bring On the Swans! No More Ducks!

Swan Flying illusQuest 2016 Prompt # 3 today came from high-level designer and brand strategist, podcaster and author, Debbie Millman.

Her challenge was:
“How would you do business as unusual in 2016 if you knew – no matter what you chose – you would not fail?”

This question makes me reflect on how I’ve done business in the past – and how I see other people doing what looks like the norm, the model, the ideal of  “business as usual.”

I have not attained that level of professionalism yet. But my own version of business as usual has  been cautious, putting out small, limited, very specific offers, often at a discount, not fully indicative of the full range of what I know I’m capable of. I’ve been operating at reduced power, with the idea running in the background of “I’ll get to that later. I’ll unleash my true work later.”

Here’s my shot at Business as Unusual for 2016:

Business as Unusual is putting my highest level creativity out in the world now; not waiting till later. 

It’s also partnering with my intuitive gifts and using them to create with. It means always turning within (or above) for direction, guidance and inspiration, for content and language – and trusting that. 

It’s partnering with my creativity, my intuition and guidance, and my highest inspiration – and putting that out into the world in as big, free, and joyful a way as I can.

It include elements of art, of inspired words, and going for my high-heaven vision! And trusting that those who are my true tribe will respond to and recognize the energy I send.

So doing Business as Unusual means joining my innate love of creative expression with an urgent message that my soul (and my “upstairs” connection) are continually feeding me… and putting out a vibrational frequency flow that combines urgency with joy, beauty, and celebration, poetry, humor, and daring.

And it means using technologies that are within my grasp, that I can use “well enough,” so long as they serve as tools for me to express with.

Business as Unusual means removing my veils. It means not trying to look like anyone else, not doing things the way I see others doing them. Not trying desperately to conform and hoping I can “pass.” 

It always comes back to the Ugly Duckling syndrome.

The Ugly Duckling question is: Why am I once again trying to be a good duck (and failing) when I’m actually a swan? Why am I embarrassed to reveal my swanness to the world? Especially when I know that the world – and my tribe in particular – are clamoring for swans!  

So doing Business as Unusual for me means not trying to conform, not trying to “pass,” not trying to follow the leader and “do it right” –  especially when I know I can’t. Because, frankly, I really suck at “doing things right.”

It means the return to that long-seen and still unresolved paradox of mine … To stop trying to be a “good duck” and continually failing… When all the while I’m really – and secretly know I am really – a Swan!

I need to fully grasp that the world wants, needs, and is calling for more Swans, not more ducks. Not more “do it this way, play it safe, impress people, look like a real professional” conformist look-alikes  (appearances to the contrary notwithstanding).

I secretly know that what the world – what people – are longing for, craving, and rejoicing in when found – are out of the box original daring creative visionary high-flying soaring angels with big white wings…. who may be extremely awkward when trying to walk on the ground… but who suddenly reveal their true nature when they glide into their natural element and take our breath away.

Yes, doing Business as Unusual for me in 2016 will be letting my Swan nature take the lead. Trusting her, rejoicing in her, knowing that when I let her lead – and let ‘er rip – I cannot fail.

My business identity for 2016 is:
SWAN: SOULFUL WONDROUS AMAZING NAKEDNESS!

Bring on the Swans! No more Ducks!

Don’t Plug Your Volcano

Screen shot 2015-12-01 at 8.11.03 PMToday I am responding to the first prompt from Tracking Wonder’s Quest 2016. This prompt, from best-selling author Susan Piver, is :”What I most need to tell myself about 2016 is…”

What I most need to tell myself about 2016 is that.. anything is possible. Everything is possible.

The field is wide open and beckoning, and I am being invited to step in. It is entirely up to me. Whatever I initiate with confidence, joy, trust and generosity will unfold in perfection for the greatest good of the whole. And I will be supported in what I do, so long as I do it as an offering of Who I Am to All That Is.

I also need to tell myself that this is the year I will become the public speaker I have longed to be… and that everything will flow from that, as I step into my natural place of alignment – finally.  As I allow the energies that want to come through me to emerge, there is no limit to what powerful positive forces may be released into life – my life and Life in general.

The past few seasons have been intense, filled with challenge, as I’ve needed to learn how to create a life that works – from scratch.

I suppose my path is unusual, but I have been “protected” most of my life from having to survive on my own, to support myself, to know I could do that. This life has been made of equal parts freedom and frustration, potential and powerlessness. With the cushion of “just enough” money under me, I could always “put off” the hard things I was afraid to face. And not facing them undermined my confidence as I did not develop those muscles of competency, self-reliance, and self-trust.

Until recently … when my money ran out.

I was already in business but had what is known as a “hobby business” that cost me more than it brought in. I did this for as long as  I could get away with it, letting my fears dictate what I would or would not do.

Now, quick change of scene from relaxation to panic, from leisure to urgency. And even as the ground collapsed under me, greater clarity and conviction are calling me forward.

In this very week, as we approached December and the impending new year, I have received a clarity so dazzling and yet so obvious about what I am “really” here to do, that it has stunned me.

I say “really” because the pursuit of Purpose has consumed me for decades. So it is shocking to recognize that something hiding in clear sight has simply stood up to face me as I have felt a strong pull to do the thing I’ve always done naturally all my life, which is to speak in public from a place of presence, big picture seeing and inspiration.

What I am is not a coach, although I call myself that. It is not a healer, although I have studied and use many healing modalities to help myself and others. I am not primarily a facilitator of personal growth and discovery for individuals, though I excel at that. And I am not primarily an intuitive consultant, although I have done readings for numerous people who have been deeply inspired by them.

What I am is a public communicator. I have known this all my life. I have experienced the power and expanded energy of that role whenever I’ve stepped into it. And I have suffered from the suppression of that craving for the many years when my main platform was from the back of the room in the endless trainings I attended as a participant (“perpetual student syndrome” being a favorite way to avoid the call to be a Teacher).

I once described myself as feeling like “a plugged volcano,” so intense was the energy to express that wanted to erupt through me.

Now that I have said Yes to this inner imperative, which also matches my intense desire to inspire and uplift others, it feels like some curtain has parted. The energy feels electrically alive and the path forward feels open and unimpeded. In fact, the rocket ship feels ready to take off.

What I most need to tell myself about 2016 is that I am ready... and that in saying Yes I have already unleashed the forces needed to propel me towards the place I most belong.